I stopped because I had gone to far too many funerals for friends who died "doing what they loved". These were highly experienced people. Google Jim Haberl or Alex Lowe if you care to. They were 2 of my friends among many who have died.
I have been there, too. Hell, about 25 years ago I literally watched a friend just walk off a 700ft drop off, completely unroped, while we were both in virtual altitude coma.
But, it hasn't stopped me from pursuing the places I love.
If you knew Alex, then please tell Jennifer that Brad Ziel says hello. I haven't seen her in almost 15 years.
I miss the "old days" of mountaineering...when you could do it without a $100,000 bill and a team of photojournalists.